you fucking ruined me, i knew you would, youre so pathetic and for some reason i let you do this to me, im over you and i still cant be happy with another person, ive had chances, im having chances and youre still always right there, saying "you cant do this, you have to be alone, its the just the only way it can be...." you dont even know this, you wont know this, i havent told you this, i wont tell you this,and because of that im letting the way i feel continue, i must be happy in this lonely misery because i let you over, i let you do the things you do, i enjoy the things you do, and for every other moment i feel like tearing everything down, i wish i hadnt known you because i could be happy with anyone else. im afraid to be hurt again and it doesnt even matter to you. it wouldnt matter if you knew, i hope you feel the way you do forever, knowing that you let something this good pass right by you. and you know that im always going to be here, that you'll come to me when youve been turned down again, and because youre the only one who makes me forget about how pathetic i am for a slight second. i would never make you happy which leads me to think i could never make any one ever, anywhere happy, and this is HAHA ridiculous cause youre nothing. given this kind of chance, this gamble on a feeling, its called LIVING YOUR LIFE, AND LOVING IT, and i will do it alone, again, thanks to you.
tidal waves they
rip right through me
tears from eyes worn cold and sad
pick me up now
i need you so bad
you get me so down
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